She will hate me for this when she's older...

But isn't this the cutest little 1 year old hiny you have ever seen?

Faith & Fear

I don't normally post my deepest, darkest thoughts on here for everyone to read, but I feel compelled to do so today. I was so thankful for the lesson given in Releif Society today. We spoke a lot on how faith and fear cannot exist together. I really thought about this and my thoughts turned to my sweet Bailey. She may only be 3 years old but I have already worried about her enough to last a lifetime. She is a late talker, she is SO all over the place and doesn't sit still for long, and has just been my challenge from the start. While I wouldn't change her for anything, I have worried about her. As I sat today and listened to what was being said about faith and fear. How they cannot exist at the same time. How fear is Satan. I was moved. I have let fear paralyze me. I have let Satan paralyze me. I have been so consumed with fear over "what if" something is wrong with Bailey that I have not fully let myself just enjoy who she is. Enjoy my sweet girl who makes roll on the ground with laughter at the funny things she does.
She has been to a number of specialists and no one has yet to tell me there is anything wrong with her. They are working with her, we have been blessed to get her SO much help for speech and the like. Heavenly Father knows her needs. He is aware of her struggles. He has put all the things necessary for her in our path. That is faith. Not being so fearful of the "what if's" that faith becomes invisible.
Today I am going to love her more, snuggle her more, and truly embrace the little lady that she is. Not be afraid to take her somehwere because others will think I have no control over my own child. Love her more because of the struggles she is facing, and working so hard to overcome. Today I feel priviledged that Heavenly Father would trust me enough to send me such a strong spirit to raise. I am grateful for a Heavenly Father who hears and answers our prayers. I have done my share of pleading with the Lord over my Bailey, but today I am so thankful and full of faith in the Lord. That no matter what, things will be okay.

My Dear Sisters...

Please come home. I miss each of you dearly and hate that nobody lives near each other anymore. Can you please all come be my neighbors? I promise I am happy to help with all the cute little ones, you pregnant ladies and whatever else you need assistance with. Just PLEASE come home. I am ready and waiting. Until then...

I love you all. I miss my best friends.

Ash

Another Year Older, and Wiser too??

I hope so. Time will tell I suppose. My big 2-6 birthday came and went without a single picture. Can you even believe that? With or without pictures I had a great day. I spent the entire day shopping with my sweet mom and (NO KIDS) who came down to spend the day with me. I found all kinds of cute things for my bedroom that I am trying so desperately to finish after 3 years of living in my house. Should be SO cute when I am done.
I came home to my hubby and little ladies who baked a cake for me and made me the sweetest card with their tiny handprints and scribbles. I LOVED it!
Then my mom was so nice and stayed to watch the girls while Aaron and I went to dinner. We were going to see a movie too, but nothing was showing that late. So, what do you do when all else fails? Go to Target, stroll down to Ross, then top the night off with a new book (for the hubby. Whose Birthday is it again) at Barnes and Noble haha!
It really was a fantastic, relaxing day.

Oh, The Possibilities...